3 Boys and a Mom - Diary of a Tagteam

Sooo summer ends for us in a week... The boys start school on the 6th... I did the "school shopping" thing yesterday and man now I am wiped out - not to mention I really didn't assess what all the kids have so who knows if I really got all they need! *L* I know I still have to get them winter coats and boots for sure....

We are just trying to enjoy the last week of summer, the humidity finally broke and the weather has been nice but I managed to get a killer sinus headache that had me down for the count for 3 days.... But now that I feel better and we only have a short time of freedom left I want to do as much as I can with the boys so I am hoping to spend alot of time out of the house this next week...

Ethen is just growing in leaps and bounds... He wakes with a huge smile every morning that just totally warms my heart.... He's 17lbs 13oz, 26inchs as of Tues the 23rd... He's got 2 teeth on the bottom, he rolls to his side and ALMOST onto his belly and back again... He loves the Johnny Jumpup and his Discovery Ball.... He likes to go for walks in the stroller and all the attention his brothers give him.... We are still nursing w/a small amount of supplementing and I hope to keep that up for a few more weeks atleast... I am in no hurry to start him on solids as he's my baby and I am in no rush to see hit all the milestones quickly....

So the official word at the moment is that the fort will be closed... Not surprised and actually a little excited to see what new opportunities and doors this opens... Also might even delay having to figure out where the heck we are gonna live next Sept as maybe they will have a heart and let us live in the trailer park a bit longer... And speaking of work - I have been filling in for the shift leader on weekends, taking the overnights - it's been nice because I get 10 to 13 hrs of work time in and I still have lots of "day time" to spend w/the boys without using a lot of leave... Plus it's nice to know I am trusted enough to cover a position that is above my usual responsibilities but man is it tiring.... I forgot how tiring working midnights were and I am sooo glad that this is just a temporary thing....

I am TRYING to drop a few pounds and become more active - I just need to find a better stress reliever then eating.... So far while the scale has said I haven't lost any thing I am still a size smaller then I was although I have to be careful cause a few things were feeling snug this week... It's been 6 months++ since I stopped smoking - I wonder if that has a little to do with it??? Not to mention I am so tired lately that I know my eating habits aren't very proper... Yet another reason to be glad when school starts so we can get back on a schedule that doesn't seem to involve running running running - even if we are having fun!!!!

I am still struggling w/the PPD thing but I am pretty sure it's not just PPD and really just general (?) depression... I messed up w/the meds (skipping doses) lately but I am back on the wagon and plan on staying there... I am also trying to be come more active w/my online communities to feel a bit more connected to people.... Maybe I can wake my brain back up too and actually start to have conversations and ideas that are interesting - or that I can remember long enough to share with others! *L* That darn MOMMYHEIMERS man it really does a number!! *L*

Well it's time to send out commo checks and such.... Til next time....

It's been a long, hot week and I don't think I got much of anything accomplished.... I did cook quite a bit this week and I did manage to stay close to on top of the dishes... I still have alot more to do though.... And now my luck has run out at work.... The boss told me today that his boss said no more baby.... I understand, I know I was pushing my luck w/it and my boss was wonderful about it but the nazis up in the front/head office - arrgggggg... Well E will have to just buckle down and keep Ethen w/the other boys 5 hrs a day during the week and for the next 5 weekends overnight Sat and Sun nights.... After that things will be semi normal... 6.5 hrs per day M-F and 8 hrs on Sundays.... sort of flex hours... OR once we see how things are going w/the morning routine maybe I will do 8 hrs daily M-Th if I can get to office by 7ish then I can leave at 3ish.... We shall see how things go... First I need to get on a schedule myself of getting to bed earlier and getting up and moving and ready at 6-6:30 am..... That starts this coming week.... I have more to tell about the boys but I am wiped out right now so maybe tomorrow... Til next time...

My day started out so nice and peaceful - the boys were playing nicely...

And then.....





3.5 hrs later this is what we ended up with!!!

The short version is that somehow Dilen assisted a golf club in meeting Deven's head.... No concussion or breaks - just a nice little gash.... And we even got to keep the gown as his shirt was pretty much soaked in blood as head wounds bleed... No stitches - they used Dermabond and surigical strips to close it.... We are not to swim or submerge head in water for a week.... It's gonna be a LONG week home w/these two!!!! Til next time....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! I am 21, 25, 29... *sigh* 36! Not even the boys will let me bluff on this one... But I am ok w/it really - I don't feel old at all.... Stiff, tired and fat but not old! *L*

And since I have had almost a whole pot of coffee, filled the bird feeders, sprayed down my bug loved boys as they went out door and ... well that's about it but hey it's enough so I am headed back to bed!!! Yeah RIGHT! *L*

Ethen is smiling, cooing and talking to me from his bouncy seat - he's examining his hands/arms and it's just sooo cute!! I can't explain the love, joy and amazement I feel for him..... This weekend is also his birthday/anniversary as he was concieved on my birthday last yr... I don't for a minute regret him in any way what so ever however he comes with a world of mistakes that I DO regret.... Dealing w/E is such a stress.... I spend half my time angry and the other half a complete nervous wreck anymore... Next time I start to feel lonely, horney or whatever someone SLAP ME!!!!! Remind me that nothing changes, things are still miserable and stressful... He never going to change and it's always gonna boil down to it being MY fault and ONLY my fault... It's ok though cause it's a situation that is fairly easily remedied.... I just need to hurry up and fix it....

And then there are Ethen's brothers! *LOL* They have fought over a board game, fruit roll ups and golf balls already this morning... And then there is Dilen - he came to me in tears the other night holding his penis.... Seems while chewing gum he got he BRILLANT idea to put the gum on his penis and it got stuck!! *LMAO* Ok maybe not so funny but I certainly never thought I would be working gum off the skin of my son's penis... The look on his face was pricelessIt took baby oil and about 10 min to get it all off - of course the entire time we had the discussion AGAIN about gum staying IN your mouth once you start chewing it!!!

Well it's off to straighten up the living room.... Til next time...

Just a few random thoughts - the boys start school in about a month, my baby is 16 wks today - seems like I was still pg just yesterday, it was a year ago this weekend he was concieved, I am gonna be 36 in 2 days, my house is a disaster because we have been spending alot of time at the Six Flags water park and my body is achy from alot of walking in the water.... I think today we will just stay home and relax and rest although we all need haircuts so I think we will do that THEN go home and rest - the boys can swim in the pool while I work in yard later but other then that we will have a lazy day at home so I can catch up on laundry/dishes/vaccuming... Til next time....

I frequent/lurk on a few different April 05 Playgroup/Birth Club boards and btwn the 3 or 4 of them I hang out on we have lost 2 babies to SIDS in the past 2 months... While I am not overly close to most of the gals on the boards I am deeply affected by the loss of infants.... I can only imagine the pain the parents are going thru... Today is the funeral for one of the babies and it breaks my heart to think of it... I find myself having moments that are almost MANIC while I must check on Ethen and then the older boys... I am already a bundle of emotions and cry at commercials, cartoons and tv shows but today I am just a bit sadder then usual.... My thoughts and prayers go to Emily and Jesse today as they lay Gio to rest.. {{HUGS}}

I am gonna hold my boys a bit closer today and spend some time w/them at the waterpark just being silly... Til next time...

Well my visit w/Karin while short was WONDERFUL!! The boys had fun hanging w/Karin's kids and we all had fun going to Hurricane Harbor and then the beach!! I just wish that the visit had been a little longer and that the stress levels on my side had been a little less but overall it was a wonderful visit....

The boys had a BLAST at the Poconos for the NASCAR race - pics to follow....

I have been in a sort of funk - I start to make process and get on a roll and then get distracted and find it hard to get back on track.... Plus I find myself starting a bunch of things at once and then can't focus on any of them... I really need to work harder at making lists and getting thru stuff... I have a goal of being decluttered by half of what I have now by end of Oct... Now to just make a list and prioritize....

Ethen is doing wonderful - growing like a weed... Work keeping me busy suddenly!!! Til next time..